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Jesus I LOOK to You!

I want to be YOUR Dream Come True...

A Tribute to our BLACK Men... Watch and Be Inspired..

Happy Monday... I guess...

I have yet to meet someone who is SUPER excited about Monday. Just moments before the alarm clock goes off, I think the weight of the weekend seems to crush you.

It was my plan to finish editing a few of the projects I've been working on. BUT my body needed rest so that's what I did.

I'm looking forward to the week ahead... There are MANY things that MUST be accomplished on my list then are things that I want to complete.

That said, I will just take it one day at a time with every intention on reaching my goals for this week!

I pray that each of you finds balance, peace, and clarity as you begin your week...

Now I LAY Me DOWN to SLEEP...

Today was a great day! I had breakfast at a local eatery that I like. I went to CHURCH because it was SABBATH according to my religious belief. I took a much needed 3 hour nap after eating a HUGE meal that was tasty and satisfying for lunch. I then went to SKATE with friends from Church. Then to a 24 hour place so that we could eat and talk. 

There were many interesting topics... 

But rather than trying to sum up my feelings, and thoughts I'm going to go to sleep. 

Then wake up God willing, have morning Quiet time with God, then check my To-Do List then WRITE at some point once the above  is done... 

I trust each of you are having a good weekend thus far and I pray that each of you is safe! May God Bless each of you! Goodnight and Sweet Dreams...

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Is the Biblical Perspective on Premarital Sex STILL Relevant in today's Society?

Yesterday on Grown Folk Radio at 5pm the topic of the day was is the Bible still relevant when it comes to Christian Singles and their Sexuality?

Being that I was raised in a very closed society of religion, certain things were just not acceptable. One of those things was Sexuality before marriage. However, as with everything there are DOUBLE Standards.

In my OPINION there are countless double standards in EVERY Religion. Come to think of it double standards exist in society. I enjoy EQUALITY. I feel that if a Man can do is dirt and still be respected then I feel like I should be able to do whatever it is I feel like doing at the moment. I don't feel I should be judged by what I'm doing because that's not WHO I am.

For example, because I'm a Journalist that doesn't mean that I'm not a Woman as well. People have this perception that I'm supposed to be Prim and Proper 24 hours a day without fail. But I feel like Journalism is just my Career its not who I am. That said, I would appreciate it if everyone treat Me like the cool, comedic individual that I am rather than trying to put me in a BOX.

With that foundation in place I'm going to give my thoughts on the topic

I am of the opinion that SEX is just for Marriage. HOWEVER, being that I'm not a teenager its safe to assume that I have had at least one sexual partner. It always gets Me when Men ask me crazy questions like:

"How Many Men have you been with"? What, I scream in my HEAD just because you are attracted to Me that doesn't mean that I as a Woman lower my standards to sleep with every man I happen to think is physically captivating. I am a Woman after all NOT a Man in this respect anyways. So while Men may have a hard time controlling themselves. I for the most part have a pretty good handle on who I am as a Woman.

I want nothing more than to be Married and Pregnant. But apparently this isn't my season for that. So it is what it is...

I think that when it comes to SEX you are talking about something that I consider to be sacred. So even though my FLESH my want to Sample Every Flavor of Man I happen to see my LIFE experience has taught me by observing others that there are HUGE consequences to well just doing anything with anyone. Sure you may think you as a Woman are getting over but the whole time you are screaming EQUALITY he's just laughing thinking that he got the jackpot. He has the best of both worlds a Woman he is attracted to plus she's trying to be Ms. Independent so there's NO reason to Settle down with her.

In the End its the Woman that gets the judgment and more importantly is left SINGLE.

Now I must admit that I'm single because of my MOUTH... I tend to talk people to death... Therefore, I write when no one is interested in Speaking with Me.

I think that NO one should be having SEX before Marriage, Male or Female. BUT that's just not the world that we live in....

Mind of a Black Man... From the Mind of a Black Woman...

Black Men feel they are unable to be Open with Black Women in terms of their emotions. I have grown up around all types of Men and I've NEVER understood why Black Men seem to CLING to Non-Black Women once they reach a certain status.

I choose to ask some Hard Questions starting out with Family and Moving out to Friends then to total strangers who I felt met my criteria. Any Black Man I saw dating outside his race I asked him especially if he had some level of success why he was dating outside of his race. I got an waterfall full of answers but in my opinion there was a common theme: Black Men feel disrespected and under appreciated by their Black Women. I was told story after story of hardship and determination.

But one thing Many Black Men told Me was that even though they were willing to fight for their Mom's or Grandmothers they were not willing to FIGHT for the LOVE of a Black Woman! At first this answer really ANGERED Me. But then I began to research the reason behind the conclusions of the Black Men I spoke to. I found that Many Black Men felt that the women of other races were Easier to Get along with in every way. According to the Men I interviewed they felt White Women were More Open Sexually, Spiritually, and that while the Black Woman looked at the Black Man with Regret the Non-Black Woman looked at the Black Man with Respect, Appreciation, and Admiration.

I had to take a good look in the mirror at myself and ask myself How I had treated Black Men I worked with, went to school with, or had relationships with. I quickly came to the conclusion that many times I allowed the pressures of life to cloud my appreciation, love, and the respect I had for many Black Men. I never stopped to think about the level of rejection a Black Man dealt with on a Daily Basis. I never stopped to think about how I verbally attacked my Black Brothers when they made moral mistakes. I never took notice of how my words may have help to shape the perceptions of Black Men around Me.

With the above life experiences combined with lots of soul searching I've realized that my Black Brothers need more love, more respect, more devotion than any other Man on the Planet. Regardless of how I'm treated by Black Men that I love and admire I have attempted to make a conscience effort to understand the MIND of the Black Man rather than jumping to conclusions and then verbally lashing out. I am praying and asking God to soften my heart when I am wounded by Black Men emotionally. I now understand that "Hurt Black Men Hurt Black Women by default either by rejection or by interaction."

Start Your Day Right Each Day!

Every Morning I get up I take time to spend in the Bible. Now you may think this is a silly way to begin a day. Stop and think for a second about what your Morning rituals are.

• Some may start by drinking a cup of their favorite blend of coffee

• Others may begin their day by braving the cool temperatures to take their morning smoke

• Still some may begin their day by looking at their to-do list they made the night before

• Then there are those that thrive off knowing what's going on around the globe so read the headlines off say Google News or their favorite New Outlet

• Then there are those that begin EACH day with God

• Then there are MY personal Favorites those that Wake up Each Day and have their Quiet Time for reflection and Bible Study who then visit my Blog for their Daily Dose of Hott Mocha!

I at different times of my life have tried all of the above or used a combination of a few of the examples I gave. But from my life experience I can tell you that when I have taken time to thank God for allowing me to wake up with my health and strength my day seems to go so much better!
Especially when I take time for an Inspirational Thought or Song or Bible Scripture. I seem to be Empowered! I seem to be reminded of the fact that my Life is Truly in God's hands if I allow Him into my Heart each day!

Life is hard. I cope with the struggles of life by trying to look for the positive in all the negative situations that I encounter or that my friends encounter. I try to remain Hopeful but sometimes its hard really hard to Imagine when you are faced with Reality each and every moment of the day.

Last night before going to sleep the last thing that I did was watch President Obama Address the Nation during the 2011 State of the Union! I personally was moved by the realism. I was prompted to be hopeful and to continue to look for ways I can stay involved in my community, church, and family.

As I watched President Obama I was reminded why I worked so hard and will continue to sacrifice my desires for the needs of those around me. I was reminded why I should continue to Imagine or Think BIG or Just Work Hard even when there is no real solution in sight. I was reminded to have Faith and I was reminded to continue putting my TRUST in God and Not Man!

I know that God knows my heart and He knows my daily struggles. More importantly God is there in the darkness of my room when I'm all alone. God hears my prayers and sees my Tears as they roll down my cheek onto my pillow. God knows when my tears are happy tears and when they are tears out of frustration! God knows Me and I'm beginning to put my Trust in Him and His plan for my life by Beginning Each Day Right...

Why don't you give it a try... The way I see it, I've tried everything else...Why not Try Jesus...

Hott Mocha Book CLUB Schedule for 2011

For those of you who don't know I've been meeting regularly at Barnes & Noble since 2008 for my Book Club! So its January and there are so many great books to read! I'm now accepting suggestions for our next reading project. As always if I don't get any suggestions then I get to PICK the Book! I would appreciate your input. I would like to Meet this Year at the University Park Barnes & Nobel! Please let me know what days are good for you. So far some are suggesting Monday nights for 30 minutes.... Again, I'm open for suggestions!

Hott Mocha Book Club Incentives & Prizes

• I will have Hott Mocha Book Club Membership Punch Cards!

• Earn a Punch for each Book read + Attendance at meeting!

• You will earn the Next Book FREE after getting your PUNCH Card filled!

• Choose from Your Choice of 2 Book Club Bags with My Hott Mocha Book Club Logo for 5 dollars or the Free Book when the Punch card is filled!

Great Random Experience!

Today I met such a nice woman! At first glace you may think that we have nothing in common. But come to find out we have lots in common! We are women who are passionate and eager to make our way in the world. She has a daughter studying at Columbia and I might get the chance to speak to her daughter in the near future hopefully. Come to find out her daughter and I share lots in common from our overall personality to actual careers.

Being that I've been working for quite some time as a TV Journalist/Personality I love meeting NEW exciting women. But my passion is Youth Mentor-ship! I'm great at lots of random things but I'm great at School so that's why I'm super excited to go to school once again... This time its in an area that I feel I may be able to make a difference.


At my age, everyone is thinking about their life purpose and what they are doing to either fulfill or reach their goals. I am eager to see where God will lead and place in my life this year. Already I've had the opportunity to meet such awesome people!

TO MY BLOG Readers:

Thanks for taking time out your day to get
Your Daily Dose of Hott Mocha!!!

God Grant Me Grace... Make Me Over from the Inside... This is my Prayer...

Sometimes I find it so very difficult to remain positive when there is so much negativity going on in the world, media, and my community. It's so easy for me to lash out with my FIST in the Air: "Screaming Justice for Everyone". But then I am quickly reminded by God's Word The Holy Bible that ALL are sinners... That everyone, especially Me is in need of God's Grace. More than that I need constant Forgiveness, and well Guidance. I know that God is the one in charge of my life if I allow Him. 

But I have to say I find the WHOLE Journey of Sanctification frustrating and tiresome... I know that my Spiritual Transformation is a life work but I am one that THRIVES off meeting deadlines so the mere Concept of NEVER being able to CONTRIBUTE or reach a Deadline is like walking on broken glass with no socks! 

I CRAVE the ability to truly Forgive and to let go of past issues but something in me believes that if I forgive then I'm saying that the wrongs that happened to me are either nonexistent or are no longer relevant. I know that God is the ONLY one that can give true Justice but sometimes I want the COURT system, Media, and others to take VERBAL responsibility. 

Having such strong opinions put Me in a very sticky situation because I am often the perpetrator of Harsh words. I need to allow the Holy Spirit to quiet my lips when tempted to just FLY off the handle. I need to learn to listen more than I speak. There are so many things I need God to Fix in Me. I just hope that I don't allow my stubborn nature to keep me from the Blessings that I know God has in store for My life... 

 

Shh...Family SECRETS Revealed...

Oprah finds out that her Mother gave up a daughter for Adoption. The daughter's name is Patricia which actually was the same name of the daughter that had passed a few years back. I was MOVED by this story because OPRAH took it upon herself to dedicate an entire show to uncovering the FAMILY SECRET which turned out to be a BLESSING in disguise! Oprah now has a half sister who she met for the very first time!

Every family has SECRETS including mine... There is a time and place for everything. For me its been very hard choosing when and how to disclose certain things. I know there are many in my Family that wish I was quiet and reserved. Or maybe not compelled to address the things that have happened during my life thus far. I believe my motives are pure BUT I will admit that my Presentation and Timing haven't been the best... Especially recently.

I can't say that I haven't wanted to inflict pain to certain family members in an attempt to get them to acknowledge my pain and emotional torment, that I've endured for much of my life by KEEPING Family Secrets.

With the New Year... I've chosen to continue to do some major soul searching and counseling in an attempt to address my brokenness. I ask for your prayer, as I try to deal with my past in a way that will enable me to become empowered rather than living in the jail of my mind, that has often made Me feel chained to the past...

Introducing Holly Robinson Peete the Host to Watch on CBS's NEW Show: The Talk

Holly Robinson Peete Biography 

Holly Robinson Peete was recently featured as a candidate on "Celebrity Apprentice." Her other television credits include "21 Jump Street," "Hangin' With Mr. Cooper," "For Your Love," and "One on One." She also starred in the original cable movie, "Matters of Life & Dating."

In addition to acting, she performed the theme songs for both "21 Jump Street" and "Hangin' With Mr. Cooper," and did her own singing as Diana Ross in the miniseries, "The Jacksons: An American Dream." Robinson Peete has also been an on-air personality alongside her husband Rodney Peete, a former NFL quarterback, on their daily radio program, "Meet the Peetes," airing on Sirius/XM Satellite Radio.

In 1996, Robinson Peete and her husband formed the HollyRod Foundation, inspired by her father's courageous battle with Parkinson's disease. Following their son RJ's autism diagnosis in 2000, the couple launched hollyrod4kids to focus on improving the lives of children and their families affected by autism. Through the HollyRod Foundation and her family's personal experiences, Robinson Peete has become an advocate for consistent and reliable education, outreach and support of families affected by autism and Parkinson's Disease.

In spring 2010, Robinson Peete released her second book - a children's picture book called My Brother Charlie about autism from the sibling's perspective - which was co-authored by her 12-year-old daughter, Elizabeth Peete.Robinson Peete won the 2006 Quill Literacy Award with her first book, Get Your Own Damn Beer, I'm Watching the Game: A Women's Guide to Loving Pro Football.

Robinson Peete attended Sarah Lawrence College. She and her husband of 15 years are the proud parents of four children. Currently, they reside in Los Angeles. Her birth date is Sept. 18.

Now for my comments:

Of course I have always been a FAN of Holly Robbinson Peete! What's not to LOVE! Peete, is the ESSENCE of Womanhood! She is a Wife, Mother, Career Woman, Involved in all types of Community Service and to top all that off she is such a Beautiful Woman of Color! 

Watching her for the first time when I was a child on the the sitcom "Hangin' With Mr. Cooper I instantly related to her comedy but was blown away by her charisma and her charm! I read every article I can get my hands on that's about her especially when its about Children with Learning Differences! I love to just see what she's up to next! 

Of course I'm choosing to highlight Holly, because like EVERYONE I watch TV because I relate to one of the Host or Cast Members. 

I think the TALK has Amazing Hosts! I think they have The VIEW beat! At least when it comes to Women in my Demographic which are women between 25-35! The Women on the show are all very Accomplished, Fashion Forward, Independent thinking Individuals that have a flare for communicating their unique perspective! DIVERSITY is always the best INGREDIENT to any SHOW, OFFICE, TV Network, Church, or Community! 

I've PAYED my Dues! I've honed my Skills! I've taken direction & critique! I'm READY for MY Opportunity: The Natasha Ray Show

Oxygen's SNAPPED featuring TV Personality Natasha Ray

Click on the TITLE and WAIT for the CLIP to START playing! Thanks for your support and for watching! I've learned so much since covering the Murder Trial of Mary Winkler! I am PRAYING that God will continue to watch over MY Career as I take STEPS to Produce, Direct, and be the TV Personality for my OWN show! But enough about me!

Oprah on her TV Network called OWN is allowing budding Journalist or budding TV Personalities to go through the TRIALS and TRIBULATIONS associated with JOURNALISM. I love this show because it allows people to REALLY UNDERSTAND by GOING behind the Scenes to SEE all the HARD work and PLANNING that goes on to make good TV! I am clearly rooting for the contestant who looks most like me that I can relate to both in beauty, background, and overall personality! Let me introduce you to Alicia she is Beautiful, Bold, Black, and above all she is a go getter! I invite you to tune in to watch her!

I know that ONE Day I will GET the OPPORTUNITY to have my OWN Show! Until then I will keep myself busy with other things like community service, My Mary Kay Business, Church Ministry and School! I have a feeling that God is getting ready to BLESS My Life Abundantly! After all, God knows about all the racism and hardships my Career in Journalism has caused my life. God knows the self sacrifices I've made. But most of all God knows my HEART and God has seen my TEARS! He has seen me self sabotage friendships because I didn't have the TIME or ENERGY to be a GOOD friend. God has watched me go through all my ups and downs and for some reason I feel that I've been given a SECOND chance! A BRAND New Opportunity to be the BEST Natasha I can be to learn from my Many Mistakes and to dust myself off and continue moving towards the call and MISSION of my LIFE as a TV Personality, Motivational Speaker, Gospel Broadway Vocalist, Fashion Designer, Author, and Blogger! I want to have it ALL I want to have CAREER and FAMILY and I refuse to SETTLE for anything LESS! Pray for me as I attempt to allow God total control over my LIFE!

ARE You Really UP for the CHALLENGE? I WANT You to MAKE Me FEEL like I'm the ONLY GIRL in the WORLD!

WE as BLACK WOMEN or MOCHA WOMEN are SO VERY Talented!

CONDOMS... Yes I SAID it!

The truth of the MATTER is this topic MUST be discussed! To believe that Young Unmarried Adults aren't engaging in premarital SEX is CRAZY! I don't care what religion, social economic group, ethnicity or whatever! If nothing else PEOPLE are having SEX during these HARD financial times! So with that said, I would like to say that I think the above condoms by Durex are QUITE CUTE! I mean unless you were reading the fine print one might think that the item was a cosmetics compact of some sort. Go down to your local health department if you don't believe me when I tell you even CHILDREN are HAVING Sex! Rather than passing around STD's or STI's as they call them now... Sexually Transmitted INFECTION because according to officials at the Indiana Health Department the word Disease scared off Minorities and Teens so Infection is the politically correct way to say SEX GERMS! Germs that can kill you, rob you of your years not to mention steal your ability to have children in the future! I think EVERYONE that isn't MARRIED that isn't living a sexually pure lifestyle by remaining abstinent should BE USING CONDOMS! In my perspective, I think that if you MUST use anything why not invest in the CUTE item and in this case... The condoms! Protect your heart, your mind, and your reputation as much as possible by obtaining from SEX but if you KNOW you are a PERSON who always ENDS up in a compromising situation then USE a CONDOM!

I'm PLAYING the Goodbye Game!

Brandy SINGS one of my FAVORITES! THIS is my NEW THEME song for the moment...

Rihanna GQ Covers... Wow...

BROADCAST NEWS... Way I See it!

You know how's there's a certain law that says you don't discuss religion, politics... Well I disagree I have some things on my mind. I feel that the MEDIA is a medium that is USED to control the masses! There is a book called the Art of Persuasion I had to read it during my Undergrad work at Andrews University. Anyways.... Moving on, I learned by reading the book that the RICH people are the ones that control the content of the media. I learned by working as a JOURNALIST that my opinion or view doesn't matter at all. My job is built on how well I can ignore my GUT feeling! So for example if I'm covering a murder trial and I know that the accused is guilty its my job to say, "there are two sides to every story" and "innocent until PROVEN guilty". Now there are plenty of times that I have witnessed and reported on injustices. For example, when I was working in Tennessee they have what I call LOUD Prejudice. Which means, I know that they don't like me for the simple fact that my skin is BROWN, SMOOTH, and RADIANT!
But they know that they have to work with me well because I'm a News Reporter so if they want their content or agenda to be on the 5 o'clock NEWS then they have to give Me an interview. Of course they could refuse but what purpose would that do for them, NOTHING. So they suck it up and give me the Interviews and whatever else I need like B-Roll which is supporting footage for my News Story. After a while it was funny to see that they forgot that I was a BLACK Woman or so I thought! Boy was I wrong, basically many of the WHITE men I worked for felt Angry and Intimidated by my ability to read through their TRICKS. They also knew that I knew that they wanted to have the bragging rights of sleeping with Me. So I just used that to my advantage and allowed them to give me all the favors that I wanted or needed. For example, if I didn't have enough money for lunch then the Mayors office would buy my lunch or give me GAS if I had driven to some God forsaken country HICK town to do a story about Soybeans for fossil fuel. They would then give me Gas so that I could make deadline. So that their Farm or Company or Agenda could be on the 5 and 10 News Cast.
When I first got to Tennessee my strategy was just to go to work and not to have friends because I knew Games were being played I just hadn't learned the rules. Many People might assume, that its 2011 and that racism is no longer relevant but ask ANY or MOST People of Color ANY COLOR notice I didn't say BLACK. They will tell you that they have had to rise above so many barriers and still there is no compensation at the work place. I was told by many Journalist of Color who I consider to be my Mentors (who are apart of the National Association of Black Journalist) "Tasha just BITE the Bullet it will get better. "Just Smile and work heard and don't react to all the office politics and other mess you see! For example there was the little High and Mighty Reporter who I will call Michele. She is the quintessential BLOND times TEN! She has NO common since, she feels she is God's gift to well the ENTIRE Planet and she GETS away with MURDER. This particular woman was an Anchor, Producer, and Reporter when needed. Because she knew her Role at the Station which was to get the viewers she did what she had to do. Which included everything from dating certain Men in local Government, Police, and State officials. There was NOTHING that she WOULDN'T do for a story!
Then I came along, and well when compared to me she was the average PLANE Jane WHITE Woman nothing special no banging body NOTHING! Ha, Funny right! Then all of a sudden, the local officials started to realize that I too was not only Semi Attractive but I was a GREAT Reporter! Sure I didn't know their small HICK town Southern Lingo but I knew how to get any story across. At first she just blew me off as a fly by night BLACK Reporter. But when she saw that I hung in there and took all the racial jabs, and other mess from the towns people she became Jealous!
This was because I without knowing it made her feel like the WHITE TRASH that she portrayed herself to be! Rather than using her brain to get a story she used her "BEAUTY" and since everyone KNEW that she would do ANYTHING well she had trapped herself into a certain "Stigma". I on the other hand REFUSED to go out on DATES or DRINK at the Local Bar with those Dirty WHITE Men who wanted nothing more from Me than SEX. I just prayed and went to a small church that became my lifeline! They showed me LOVE and told me that God would one day right all the injustices I had to endure on a daily basis. So that's what I did I went to work and just dealt with it. I learned their HICK TOWN lingo, I learned that there were a FEW decent WHITE People and that I could trust them to show me how to get around the other White People. I discovered that I could actually enjoy working in the HICK towns of Tennessee but after growing up in Metro Detroit Interning at the WDIV- TV 4 which is a NBC affiliate, working at FOX 5 Atlanta, and then all the traveling I'd done as a child I couldn't EVER be totally happy there. So I just did what I had to do to get the best resume tape that I could! Then I took it with me to my Mentors who gave me pointers! I worked by bottom off in Tennessee. Through the BLOOD, SWEAT, TEARS, FRUSTRATION, and RACISM with the help of that church community I did it! I learned how to be a better writer, I learned how to shoot better, and edit not for two week assignments but for the 5 and 10 pm Newscast! What I just described is called being a ONE-MAN-BAND which means you do everything then still have to put on makeup and a smile just like you had a whole crew to do it for you!

The way I see it, NEWS can NEVER be true if only ONE TYPE of PERSON is writing, editing, producing, and finally delivering the NEWS! Even if there is a minority in the bunch that person is usually so brainwashed they feel that they their voice will never be heard so they buckle down and just do what the BOSS WHITE CORPORATE AMERICA wants to HEAR and SEE on the NEWS! IF you want to get a TRUE perspective then you NEED DIVERSITY not just in ethnicity but in LIFE EXPERIENCE!

CHANGE TAKES TIME! RE-ELECT PRESIDENT OBAMA

Real TALK love it or Hate it, It is what it is!

Will and Jada Smith Interview Barack Obama for the Nobel Peace Prize awarded to President Obama!

LIFE Equations...

God + Me= Life Balance

Me + Man= Dating

Me + Men= Friends

Me + Girls= Should equal Female friends

Me + Apple Products = Functionality & Fun

Now for the harder situations:

Hobbies + Relationship + Family Dynamics + Career Pressures= Frustration

Relationship + Family Dynamics= Drama or Me Upset

Relationship with God + Me + Positive Life Choices + Friends = Fulfillment

Time Management + Relationship with God + Consistent Life Focus= TBA

Political/Racial Equations

President Obama + White Media = Misunderstanding among the Masses

Corporate America + Me = Depression

Freelance Writing + Mary Kay + Random Research + Friends = Total Bliss

Wow! Just Watch!

Esperanza Spalding Nobel Peace Prize Performance

BOLD, BLACK, BEAUTIFUL, and JUST Me!

Celebrating Martin Luther King Day

Martin Luther King Jr. Day is a United States Federal holiday marking the birthdate of Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.. It is observed on the third Monday of January each year, which is around the time of King's birthday, January 15!
Each year I think we move closer to the DREAM of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. however, in many ways we are constantly taking steps backwards as a Nation... Racism is QUIET in many areas like in INDIANA for the most part. But it hurts more in my opinion because its hard to tell who is really supporting you and who is just tolerating you as a person of color...

BLACK Comedy is on the COMEBACK

So I'm not a TV type of Chick... Mainly because there's hardly ever anything worth watching. BUT I must say this season there are more than a few Comedy options for people of COLOR! I am actually getting into "LOVE that girl" staring Tatyana Ali from the Fresh Prince of Bel Air. I think we should support our black comedies rather than being overly critical of the content or characters.... I'm guessing I feel this way because I'm very interested in pursuing some of my more creative career aspirations... Either way I think we should tune in and ALL watch! After all life is hard, may as well get a good laugh every now and then...

A little known Fact: I'm a Sports LOVING Mocha Chick!

I come BOLDLY before the LORD in prayer...

Lord, I'm sick of all this pain and stress.

I need you to help me... To mend my strain...

Sometimes I just want to seek earthly gain but

I know that road only leads to destruction...

I've been there and done most of that. I am still

here, even though there is a tear rolling down my cheek... I try to meek and humble. But I often live in this mental bubble or rather a jail sail...

If you see me you may think wow she's beautiful, smart... But if you continue to look you will start to see that even though my image at first glance is pretty I have many imperfections.

I am trying to allow God to make the necessary corrections but well I get in the way every single time.

I call myself trying but where has trying got me... No where! I've been on a track seeking success, status, and wealth but on the way to that destination I took a detour to well love... I thought that I was going to end up happily married and settled with 3 children, a home, and a dog and a vacation home.

But instead, I continue to reach certain levels of success but then I just refuse to keep going... WHY... Because I'm tired of building and experiencing success or life alone! Every single BONE in my body cries out to GOD! Lord, do you here me! Are you watching over Me?

Its a daily battle of the mind, a flat out WAR! Over much more than my current love interest but its a WAR over my SOUL. The torment that I feel is almost overwhelming at times. It is then I try to quiet the voice of reason and the words from my childhood telling me to Look to God. But how do you trust a God who has allowed you to endure so much pain, so much tragedy, so much emptiness, so much stress, so much pressure...

How do you trust a God who just seems to allow you to destroy your life time and again. Then I had to realize it wasn't and isn't God who is the problem.. Actually its only by the grace of God that I am still alive... Yes I maybe wounded and scared emotionally but I'm still hear. I have yet another day and another opportunity to be whole... rather than completed by a man...

Lord this is my prayer... I love you and I give you my heart, mind, and soul today...

Your Daughter Miss Mocha

A Pleasant Surprise...

I talk and think at what seems to others at a MILLION miles an hour... So when I connect with a random stranger its not odd... BUT the thing is I'm easily interested but not easily captivated... That said, I was running full speed in my mind with all sorts of concepts and ideas for 2011 when I ran into an old classmate from high school. Go figure. By the way I was at Barnes & Noble when everything that I'm typing about took place. Simply put, I had one of the most mentally stimulating interactions that I've had in such a while. It was more than a pleasant surprise it was a breath of fresh air. It was like going through the day with a nice rhythm. Then suddenly an entirely different cord interrupts the slow jam you're listening to. You are taken back because well because that's why they call them surprises... They are unexpected. At that moment you are trying to decide what you are going to do with the obvious discovery. But rather than jumping to conclusions or jumping the gun. You choose to just accept the moment for what it is a moment that was a pleasant surprise....

Thank YOU MICHELLE OBAMA! I almost forgot... The world had me convenienced that there was NO HOPE for Me...